They're growing up to fast.

With Summer almost over and Fall is fastly approaching I like most of you moms are probably thinking about school. My boys are 7 and 5 now. I still remember when Jacob was 2 weeks old laying in his swing with the pretty music and I lying in my bed next to him watching him sleep. I pulled out our photo album from a long time ago when the boys and there cousins were so little. There was Sam and Jacob covered from head to toe in mud standing inside grandma and grandpas house, when they use to live in the apartments in spring brook. Both boys with big grins on there faces. James and Jameson in those little tike cars that they fought over so much till there was more then one...boy they were so little. I think the most thing I remember so clearly about James infancy was his ability to be a clinger...lol Yeah I know but I miss it. He is five now and like a couple months ago he still was a mommas boy. A couple days ago I went to give him a kiss and was denied :-( My heart broke to the realization that just like Jacob he too will go through the faze. My sweet, cuddly, clingy mommas boy is growing up. The school district called the other day for James to see if I was enrolling him into Kindergarten, just another reminder of how fast they grow. It came very apparent to me yesterday how effected I was by this. I'm probably not the only one who tries to denigh it, or not think about there babies growing up...in fact I'm almost certain I'm not. So I have to deal. I have felt so sad and in the dumps lately and I think that this is part of the reason...actually I'm certain it is. It feels so good to get it out. 
This year I will be home schooling James for Kindergarten. Jacob will be going to MNVA (Minnesota Virtual Academy) which is a online at home public school system based out of Huston, MN. The one question I have for myself is How am I going to do it? How am I going to teach two? I am completely worried about this. I have no clue how to juggle two schedules for schooling for two kids that learn in two different styles and have different things to learn. This is what I heard while praying on it today. "My peace is sufficient enough for this is it not?" So it is God's peace that he gives to me. I know that it will work out. I know that I want to do it. I know that I have a desire to teach them. I know that it will all be good, but yet inside knowing this I'm completely a wreck so pray for me please....so as I study God's peace and hopefully get some :-)  It is with his peace I hope to accomplish it and with his peace I hope you blog readers leave with.